i woke up saturday morning off. just not well and not happy. it went downhill from there until i was waking up all night long on saturday night feeling so filled with rage and anger...at anything and everything. i couldn't stop tossing and turning. when dev woke up in the morning i curled up as close as i could to him and cried. and cried and sobbed and cried. dev gave me a blessing. short, to the point...calling on the powers of heaven to replace the darkness in my soul with light and love. he blessed me that i would feel the love that God, our children, and he had for me and that it might grow until it dispelled all the darkness. i can testify that that is exactly what happened. it was slow and gradual and began with devan's loving arms around me. i came to myself as the day moved along until i was calm in my heart again and able to sleep well sunday evening.
i am so grateful for priesthood power. for God's mercy in extending worthy men the opportunity to hold access to such power. for my husband's worthiness and desire to use that blessing to benefit his family. to feel the safety of God's power surrounding me. to know that there is no difference between that feeling of safety and my husband's arms. they are one in the same. as it should be.
boys...be that way for your families, your wives.
girls...settle for nothing less than a man who values his worthiness to the point that he sacrifices all his sins to obtain and maintain it.
there is nothing more reassuring in this crazy world than a worthy priesthood holder.
i saw God today for sure...but more important...i felt God today in the arms of my husband.
