this last year has been rough. very rough. to say the least. it's best to not talk about it here because some things are best left to therapy and prayer. the result of all the hard was a hardening of hearts in our family; wedges between people. we are all working on softening our hearts, asking for forgiveness and forgiving each other. it will take time, but with God's help, it'll happen.
yesterday was the first time i've seen some serious progress. we spent the entire day re-seeding our lawn. winter lawn in arizona requires a lot of work. a lot of team work. thankfully, everyone worked well together all day long. all of our children are good workers once they've figured out how to lay their attitudes aside. some are great workers even with nasty attitude, but it's always better and more enjoyable with good attitudes and, of course, good music.
at any rate, not much else to say except i had a moment while throwing out manuer in the back yard where i looked up and saw all of my beautiful children and devan working together. each person had their own bag of dirt they were throwing out or shoveling out -- each in his or her own manner, but all working towards the same goal. and this thought -- not my own -- came into my mind..."this is the joy of family. notice this moment. you are feeling the joy of family." and it felt sooooo good and refreshing after such a long drought.
i saw God in my backyard on saturday. thanks be to Him for giving me that brief, but real moment to know and feel that family can bring and eventually will bring a fullness of joy.
