yesterday was a rough day for chas. you know, some days are just rough days. he had such a bad attitude all day every time he came in contact with another human being. although he seemed to be offensively upset at every turn, he broke down at dinner saying he was frustrated because he felt that every time he tried to engage with the family in some positive way he was attacked or criticized. being told he wasn't using common sense at dinner was the last straw. i tried to explain to him that his perspective on each situation we reviewed didn't include an honest look at himself and in some instances his behavior had shown a lack of thinking about how others would respond to his choices. all in all, it was a hard day for my chasbo.
some days are like that.
it's completely normal.
laundry isn't always clean and folded in a drawer.
thankfully, late last night as i was walking through the kitchen chas caught me and put his arms around me. i LOVE chas hugs. i've always loved them, but his strong arms and thick big boy self is so amazing and i love when he hugs me these days.
it is the Spirit of the Lord that softens hearts. whether chas realized it or not, it was the Spirit that soften his heart just enough so he felt the desire to reach out to me and get that human touch that is so healing: a hug from your mom. there is something so healing about being held by your mom. no matter your age.
i told him i love him. i told him he is strong and he will grow and be wonderful. i told him he will figure it all out in time and he is doing great. because he is. perfection is not required of us at this time. willingness to work towards it is.
that hug showed willingness in my book. in God's book too, i think.
i certainly felt God today in that hug.
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