emergency!

this morning i came home from dropping june off at preschool to find ten text messages and a phone call from aidan, chas' best friend. my heart nearly stopped. i realize that if something had actually happened to chas the school would have called me, but in the moment my first thought was that something had happened to him. it really is true that having children means you walk around with your heart outside your body. it's killer, i tell you.

but i digress. turns out chas just forgot his clothes for the band performance during third period. i threw them in a bag and rushed down to the school knowing that chas is playing a lot in this assembly today. and since it's his first jazz band performance (including last night) ever, i wanted it to be a positive experience for him. see, i'm thinking about you chas. always.

again, digression. the point is that when i walked in to the school chas happened to be walking in to the office at the same time (i'm assuming to come call me!) so i was able to just hand off his stuff. perfect, God-driven timing btw. cause he loves you, chas. always. like me. always.

but that isn't even the point. the point is that chas was clearly very grateful and said as much. but then he hugged me and that just made my day. chas doesn't give out hugs often. he has never been a very touchy feely person, but in the last three years he has become even less so. i'm hoping it's a phase and he'll grow back into feeling comfortable hugging and showing affection to his family. in the meantime, any time chas hugs me is like manna from heaven. and a hug in front of all the other students isn't lost on me.

i'm good with small miracles. i see those too.

today i felt God in the arms of my strippling warrior son.