yesterday i went to the temple. i wanted to write down three names on the prayer roll, one of them being my own. i've never written in my own name on the prayer roll because that just seems odd to me, but i've been so filled with anger lately that i just needed extra prayers. so i wrote down the three names, including my own, but then erased my own and wrote another. then i went home thinking nothing of it.
fast forward to this morning. in the last twenty-four hours i found out my cousin committed suicide and instead of feeling better, i'm feeling more sad than ever. as i was moving furniture and boxes out of our front room in preparation for the tile to be set, billie perini knocked on my door. she came to tell me she has just returned from the temple and while there she felt impressed to put my name on the prayer roll.
my name.
it felt like God sent her as a messenger to tell me that my name is worth putting on that prayer roll; that i count; that i'm important to Him and He sees me. He knows my heart is so sad right now and feels betrayed, deceived, and just so sorrowful. i cannot express adequately how strongly i feel that God sent her to me today. she said she has been trying to listen and follow through on promptings. i'm so grateful she did.
i saw God in billie's eyes today.
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